Lady Gaga has just revealed that she got pregnant following sexual assault. The Academy Award winner talked about her experience on the first episode of the docuseries The Me You Can’t See.
Lady Gaga has always been very vocal for women’s rights, and protected victims of sexual assault. She has spoken
During Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry‘s new Apple TV+ docuseries The Me You Can’t See, Lady Gaga revealed that she got pregnant after the sexual assault.
The docuseries focuses on mental health, the stigma around it, and the different experiences people have.
Lady Gaga, on her real name Stefani Germanotta, appeared in the docuseries’ first episode. She talked about the aftermath of her sexual assault. It had happened when she was just 19, and it was in the industry, with a music producer.
She explained: ““I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off.’ And I said no. And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and I just froze and I—I don’t even remember.”
Lady Gaga has never named her abuser. She said she respects people who decide to announce their abuser, but she never wants to face that person again.
She continued: “First I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. And then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after, and I realized that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner at my parents’ house because I was vomiting and sick. Because I’d been being abused. I was locked away in a studio for months.”
Lady Gaga also revealed she went through a “psychotic break” that lasted for a long time. She was still feeling the pain even a couple of years ago, when she won her Academy Award in 2019 for A Star is Born.
“I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years, I was not the same girl. The way that I feel when I feel pain was how I felt after I was raped. I’ve had so many MRIs and scans where they don’t find nothing. But your body remembers..”
“It’s a really very real thing to feel like there’s a black cloud that is following you wherever you go, telling you that you’re worthless and should die. I used to scream and throw myself against the wall.”
She noted that recovery is an ongoing process, saying that “even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad, and when I say feel bad, I mean, wanna cut, think about dying.”
But she concluded on a positive note. Lady Gaga explained how after several years, she’s “learned all the ways to pull myself out of it. It all started to slowly change.”
I am absolutely proud of her for speaking up. For sharing what she’s going through. For being so strong.
The Me You Can’t See it’s available on Apple TV+.
